For a long time I never thought of myself as fat, thought I was skinny, I was. In eighth grade I started gaining a lot of weight, I ate without thinking. Eating was never an issue for me, eating food never meant gaining weight. Right after COVID-19, I got social media, I was seeing things and talking to people and I realized how much I weighed. My friends and my boyfriend at the time told me I was fat, they were all skinny. I hated the way I looked in pictures with them and felt so bad about myself. This is something that I had never felt before it was new and it was scary. I didn’t realize I was doing it but, I slowly started to not eat. I would go full days without eating and I didn’t even realize it, the feeling of being hungry just went away after a while so it became much easier to not eat. I didn’t notice that I was losing weight, I still thought I was fat. Looking back now I was sick, I lost 50 pounds in a short amount of time. I had no energy for anything I would come home from school every day and nap for over three hours. With so little energy I needed to find a way to get myself through the day, so I started drinking Celsius I had one every morning. I still drink them to this day but, not for the same reason, I have the energy to make it through the day. I only drink them if I need a pick-me-up, or if I have an early shift.

During this time I had lost my relationship with food, I felt like I didn’t need it, I was fine without it. I realize now that during that time I was being abused in my relationship, I had toxic friends and I was sick. My mom was taking me to the ER or urgent care constantly. I had so much bloodwork and ultrasounds and x-rays but they never told me what was wrong with me. When I ate I was nauseous and when I didn’t I was nauseous. I had no energy, I was irritable, my hair was falling out and I barely had a period anymore. No one knew what was going on with me, I was losing so much weight, and I looked like other girls but, they were skinny to begin with, and I wasn’t. 

I remember one night after my family and I were done with dinner, I went upstairs and went to the bathroom. I only went pee and then I flushed the toilet, then my parents started yelling at me from down the stairs. I didn’t know what I had done, the thought that I had gone upstairs to make myself throw up. I didn’t even know that was a thing people did. That night I got into a big fight with my parents about it, even though I never did it. I lost weight simply from not eating and drinking only Celsius. 

My mental health was down the drain, I was so stressed out all the time. I’ve learned that a person’s mental health significantly impacts their appetite, and to this day I still have a hard time eating when I’m sad or stressed out. 

My ex and I broke up and I dropped my toxic friends, soon after I met someone special and I became happy again. He made me feel pretty no matter what I looked like, and he still does. Since I met my now boyfriend I have gained back about 30 pounds. I’ve learned what “healthy relationship weight gain” is and I am incredibly happy. I have fixed my relationship with food, while I still associate food with weight gain I no longer see it as a bad thing. I have been at a consistent weight for about six months now, my hair has grown back in and I don’t lose it anymore, and I am happy with the way I look. It took time but, eating is a good thing 

Recovering from an eating disorder is a challenging but rewarding journey. It involves more than just restoring a healthy relationship with food; it’s about rebuilding self-esteem, fixing emotional issues, and developing new coping mechanisms. Recovery is not easy and may involve challenges, but each step forward builds resilience. Patience is crucial, and so is celebrating small victories along the way. Ultimately, recovery opens the door to a more balanced and fulfilling life, free from the constraints of disordered eating patterns and unhealthy relationships with food that you once loved.

• My relationship with food and how it has changed along with my mental health.

For a long time I had a bad relationship with food, I saw it as something that would make me gain weight. During this time I was surrounded by people who brought me down. When those people were no longer in my life and feeding into my insecurities, I was able to rebuild a better relationship with food.

• My food taste and how its related to where I grew up.

I’m from Freetown, I spent most of my youth in Boston, New Hampshire and Maine. Seafood is a staple in New England but, most people I know from here don’t like it. I love seafood and I think my love for it entirely comes from where I grew up.

• My comfort foods and why they are my comfort foods.

I have many dishes and snacks that bring me comfort and joy. Some of them, that I don’t get to have that often bring me back to certain times in my life, on the rare occasion when I get to enjoy them.

• “Corn tastes better on the honor system” is an essay that describes the relationship between humans and corn, it explores the ancient technologies involved and the significance of corns role in sustaining the relationship between people and the land.
• The essay explains the impact of colonialism on corn, describing how renaming it undermines its significance as a sacred life giver in indigenous cultures. Renaming it is symbolic of the violence that has been inflicted upon indigenous language and ways of life. The auto highlights the ingenuity and sophistication of indigenous knowledge and technology and their crucial role in sustaining cultures and ecosystems.
• For me, it took me a while to get hooked, it felt like I was reading but not retaining any of the information I read. I had to go back and really try to understand the information.
• Only 10%or less of corn is actually consumed by humans, 40% is used for ethanol production and 40% is eaten by livestock.
• “Together we can remember our covenant with corn, that she will care for the people , if we will care for her” This quote emphasizes a reciprocal relationship between humans and nature, particularly symbolized by corn. It suggests that corn, representing sustenance and life, will continue to nourish and support people if they, in turn, respect, nurture, and care for it.
• “Colonists take what they want and attempt to erase the rest” Colonizers often seize valuable resources, land, and cultural elements that benefit them, while simultaneously trying to erase the indigenous cultures, traditions, and knowledge systems that they do not value or that might challenge their dominance.
• “Maize herself has been a victim, and so have you, when a worldview which cultivated honorable relations with the living earth has been overwritten with an ethic of exploitation, when our plant and animal relatives no longer look at us with honor, but turn their faces away.” This quote describes how corn became a victim to colonization and exploitation. The respect has been lost because of this exploitation.

Workers from Burger Bazaar kidnap the head chef from pasta palace, in efforts to find where the secret sauce is hidden. The viewer is sent to take advantage of this opportunity to try to steal the sauce as well. You watch as the kidnappers interrogate the chef, you can hear the questions but not the answers but, you can tell if the chef is lying or not.The kidnappers know that the vault number is between 13 and 1300. They first ask if the vault number is less than 500, then he asks if its a perfect square, then if its a perfect cube, last he asks if the second digit is a one. The chef wasn’t able to answer the last question before the kidnappers ran off, but you know whether the chef was lying or not so you use your skills to determine what the vault number was. The answer is narrowed down to whether or not the second digit is 1. First you use the most specific question, if the number is a perfect cube, there are only 8 numbers between 13 and 1300 that are perfect cubes. If the number was also a perfect square the only options are 64 and 729, neither of these have a 1 as the second digit, so the correct answer to that question is a no. we can also remove those 2 numbers from our list leaving its with 6 options. first the chef Sia the number was greater than 500 but lied, then the chef said it wasn’t a perfect square but also lied, finally he said that the number was also a perfect cube, leaving us with vault number 64.

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All my life I’ve never really enjoyed writing, I was always told to write essays about things I wasn’t passionate about. When I would get to write an essay about something I liked or I knew a lot about I found that it was hard to stop writing. I don’t often write on my own but, when I do it’s when I’m really stressed or angry. When I write down how I’m feeling, or if I write to the person I’m angry with, I tend to clam down pretty quickly. I don’t always think to write during those times because my mind can be clouded but, when I do I honestly do feel better. I don’t think of myself as a great writer, because I don’t do it often enough to be really good. But, when I do write and I am passionate about what I’m writing it’s very relaxing, I definitely should try to write more often.

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